staring at the phone, blankly.
last night was indeed almost close to perfect. we were talking on the phone being so sweet and all. it happens very rarely because we just seemed like friends all the time this past few months. that’s not too hard to admit. he’s also one of my BFFs. in fact, i also want to admit that i have been very dry to him for weeks until last night. oops, i just did.
even in my dreams, i am so excited waking up to this day. not because of my major subjects that i have to attend to but because i will see after a few hours. i almost didn’t listen to my instructors because i was thinking of him. i don’t know why this suddenly happened to me awhile ago but it just did.
the usual meet-up place is at the struggle (at the benches actually, near the statue pushing a big rock, that our school has. it’s amazing though). finally, as our instructor dismissed us, i grabbed my bag immediately and went outside of the room. i was surprised to see him outside waiting for me. he waited for me outside of our classroom. i know it’s just a simple thing but it matters to me. it made me feel just melted and that the world has just stopped. i’ll stop the world and melt with you.-jason mraz.
i impulsively decided to eat outside. any places just to fill my cookie-filled stomach. yes, i just ate cookies before going to school. what a freak. then he suddenly said that he has to get his bag at my place and he has a 50-item quiz tomorrow. i don’t what just happened but everything just turned upside down. every feeling that i have becomes so worse. my sweetness to him was gone, the bliss and all. yes, i can also be the typical girl that you can meet who has an unpredictable mood swings. eww. i’m not even on my monthly period today.
i didn’t talk to him when we were at the jeepney. i made him look stupid, just like what he said. when we got home i wasn’t talking to him properly. i wasn’t answering his question why i am being mad at him. we went to the nearest mall, which is also the most boring one ever, to get dad’s lotto (yes, he plays lotto. i also do too!). then, he asked me again the reason why i am being so cold and mad at him. i just said to him to go home. he walked away.
why am i being like that? i was not mad at him at all. i am not mad at him. i am mad at myself for being like that. for feeling the opposite of the sweetness i felt for him last night. for treating him like that, as if he doesn’t exist to me at all. boo me for being such an ass. i am a no good girlfriend.
i was waiting for his call even up to this moment, typing this, i am still waiting for a ring. waiting and waiting just like every girl’s worst dream ever. it hurts like hell. wait, i haven’t experienced hell yet. well, it just hurts. really.
after an hour of waiting, i heard the phone ringing. i jumped and stared at the wireless phone in front of me. another boo for me guys because that ring was just from the television. eww, what a loser.
Tags: gyk, jools, love, love story
gyk (JAYK) is currently residing at angeles city, pampanga here in the philippines, she's also taking up BS Nursing at AUF. she's 18 y/o and doesn't care with her grammar. she is proud to say that she's in a relationship with a wonderful guy. she loves sweets (but who doesn't?) and coffee. internet and watching dvds makes her boredom get out of her way. she is addicted to tv series like gossip girl, OTH and house, m.d. music soothes her. she barely send sms/text messages. she just only text her bf. ;). she loves critics, it's either she'll take it positively or laugh about it. she lives her life the way she wants it to be. for her, nothing beats spending time with her loved ones and lastly, she sees to it that god is always on the top of her list. 
haay ate. ganyan din ako paminsan. pero iniiwasan ko ng magtampo lalo na nung andito pa siya sa saudi. mas gusto ko kasing okay kami sa lahat ng panahon. iniintindi ko na lang kung bakit kahit minsan nakakainis parin. wahaha. ayun.
ikaw na lang kaya tumawag. hehe. wala lang.
January 15th, 2008 at 4:27 pm
awww. cguro gnyan tlga taung mga girls.. mnsan unexpected ung mararamdamn ntn..unpredictable tlga..
but yeah, maybe u should talk to him to clear things out. :]
take care sis!
luv yahh!!
January 15th, 2008 at 8:56 pm
ganyan din ako minsan eh,
unfortunately boys really are too slow to understand kung bakit tayo nagkakaganyan,
and it just feels even more irritable after that..
nakakainis nga pero ganyan talaga yata tayong mga babae..
hmm ihope you’ll be ok soon..
just talk it over..
January 16th, 2008 at 1:20 pm
Ako, ewan? Never naman ako nainlove (as far as i can remember), so never kong naranasan yung ganyan. Pero if ever, I don’t want to feel like so cold sa partner ko, gusto ko everyday my spark pa rin. Pero I guess, di naman naitn maiiwasan maging cold sa partner. Moooooood swings!
You’re not a bad gf or whatsoever. Ganyan lang talaga ang buhay, sometimes di mo maintindihan ang nangyayari sayo. Ok lang yan ate. Smile. X)
January 16th, 2008 at 2:33 pm
it happens.
i treat boys like that.
the worst part is–
their not even my boyfriend
lols.
January 17th, 2008 at 3:55 pm
Emo-nezz is taking over the www! Cheer up. We’re not that bad
January 18th, 2008 at 8:46 am
hoho. buti ok ka na (nabasa ko sa taas. sa reply mo kay spence. ehhe!)
:]] pero lam mo ako, gusto ko tetext/tatawagan ako araw araw (pag bf),
as in. haha. gnun ako XD hoho. kahit mga bstfriends ku. ^^
January 18th, 2008 at 6:41 pm
I can sooo relate to your post - happens sometimes to me as well! I blame moodswings - they’re the worst thing ever to happen to a girl - even worse than periods x-x;;;
I hope the situation will be back to normal soon dear *hug*
January 18th, 2008 at 10:55 pm
@afef: thank you for visiting my site! yes, i hate my moodswings. super!
everything’s back to normal already… thank you again!
January 18th, 2008 at 11:53 pm
Nako, ganyan din ako… May mood swings… Yung napakandang araw na sana ay nasisira dahil sa mood swings ko at bigla na lang ako tatahimik at hindi ko sya papansinin o kakausapin. Parang ayoko lang kasi pagusapan kasi feeling ko mas sasama lang yung loob ko kaya tahimik lang ako. Pero ngayon naman I’m trying my best na hindi masira agad yung mood ko sa maliliit na bagay at kung malaking bagay na e paguusapan na namin at hindi yung tatahimik lang ako kasi yun nga feeling nya din mukha siya tanga… Pero swerte natin ‘no kasi despite ganon tayo e di tayo iniiwan ng bf’s natin
Kaya mahal na mahal natin sila dahil naiintindihan nila tayo 
January 19th, 2008 at 12:23 pm