unbearable pain.
i was raised by parents who didn’t exposed me to such pain. they always placed me on the safe zone. i don’t know if i should be proud or be ashamed of this. i WAS the type of person who never took risks. i was always at the middle then making me feel comfortable on my safe zone. but as time passes, i envy people at my age who made risky decisions. i never felt matured like them… and really, as time passes.. i became one of them. i let go of the static child that my parents raised ages and ages ago. at least i know, there’s something that i should be proud of.
but that’s not the only problem. it was like a problem in algebra, solving only one part of the equation. as i have said, my parents didn’t exposed me to pain. they never wanted me to get hurt. when i was a child, it was as if both my parents were my bodyguards. guarding me away from jerks who will just make me go wailing like a mad pig who is about to be killed. and so, as i grew older, i didn’t know much what certain decisions (risky, btw) that will make me hurt. you see, i was too proud of making this risky decisions but i never knew that some of them would give me in my gravest pain.
being clueless about what would give me pain is so much pathetic than being in pain. i am so dumb. i got pain from being lied to by people i gave my trust, i got pain from a heartbreak, i got pain when people are putting so much pressure on me, pain come when someone don’t see my worth.. different kinds of pain from my risky decision. but on the brighter side, i can say that i am a human being. i feel pain.
pain. i always get tired of that word. i sometimes hate it and sometimes love it. but most of the time, i utterly hate it. in this cruel world, pain is just all around, just like love. but at this very moment. i can’t tolerate pain anymore.
everybody lies. people come and go.
two sentences that i should remember. two sentences that should be accepted. these are two sentences that reside in reality. two sentences that are most of the time, ignored.
gyk (JAYK) is currently residing at angeles city, pampanga here in the philippines, she's also taking up BS Nursing at AUF. she's 18 y/o and doesn't care with her grammar. she is proud to say that she's in a relationship with a wonderful guy. she loves sweets (but who doesn't?) and coffee. internet and watching dvds makes her boredom get out of her way. she is addicted to tv series like gossip girl, OTH and house, m.d. music soothes her. she barely send sms/text messages. she just only text her bf. ;). she loves critics, it's either she'll take it positively or laugh about it. she lives her life the way she wants it to be. for her, nothing beats spending time with her loved ones and lastly, she sees to it that god is always on the top of her list. 
enough said. :[
I am in pain right now. I don’t even know why.
It’s just… i feel alone, sad. depressed.
I badly need someone. It’s been 3 months since I felt really happy.
Ugh , drama.
Anyways, taking risk is such a brave act.
But i don’t believe you haven’t been taking risky decisions before.
We all sleep. It’s taking a risk. Coz we’ll never know what could happen while we’re dreaming.
or worse, if we are still gonna wake up. Right?
sorry for the nonsense. maybe just because I kinda can relate.
December 26th, 2007 at 10:49 pm
hope you feel really better now :c
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just remember that God doesn’t give us problems if He knows we can’t bear them. :]
December 27th, 2007 at 5:05 am
hi
happy holidays 
that is so true. i am in pain because of lies too. very heartbreaking
i hope you’re ok already though. God bless you.
December 27th, 2007 at 8:41 am
Hello…Man i love reading your blog, interesting posts ! it was a great Saturday
January 12th, 2008 at 7:20 pm